Those who follow me know I publish on Sunday evenings. I missed the last two, and someone might wonder “so you are not writing anymore?” The answer is no, quite the opposite. Forcing posts and content is just as wrong as not writing at all. Consistency matters, but quality comes first.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The first missed Sunday was the one of cognitive tiredness. I was processing something, still inside it, and forcing a post made no sense. The second, this past weekend, I spent entirely as an organiser at GIF, Giovani In Festa, the event organised by Croce Verde and other local associations. An intense, beautiful, full weekend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The fascinating thing is that both weekends generated enormous themes to explore together. The tiredness weekend brought something about acceptance to the surface, a concept I have reasoned through, lived, and faced in a new way, with nuances I want to share. The GIF instead brought the theme of internalisation forward with force, and the more time passes the more I am struck by how central this process is becoming in my journey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
These two themes each deserve their own post, with the right space and depth. Today I will simply say that the days pass, and even in the most complex moments, liquidity included, the sense of wellbeing at the end of the day is increasingly mine. Not automatic, not guaranteed, but increasingly mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This happens because the baggage of the past is being managed without creating new baggage, leaving the new to plant seeds for the future. Sooner or later these seeds, even where imperfect, will bear fruit. And when I look back I will not have to think about the baggage but about the time I was planting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The internalisation I will talk about further ahead is an integral part of all this. From philosophy to mathematics, from video games to Go, day by day certain processes are becoming natural. Natural like walking: you reach 15,000 steps without feeling them, 20,000 the same, and at 25,000 you tell yourself “a little more.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am tired, managing a complex period, building. And yet I feel happy. That is not a contradiction, it is confirmation. It means something is genuinely being built, that internalisation is happening in my processes and thoughts. That sense of wellbeing when I go to sleep, on certain days, tells me I am on the right path.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am writing this here so it reminds me when those days come, and they will come, when I will find myself thinking the opposite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We will catch up soon on acceptance and internalisation. Not necessarily the next two Sundays, but we will catch up.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Two missed Sundays, many themes emerged. The tiredness weekend brought something about acceptance to the surface. GIF, Giovani In Festa organised by Croce Verde, brought internalisation forward with force. Today I am not going deep, I am giving a preview. Because I am tired, managing a complex period, building. <\/p>\n
And yet I feel happy. And writing it here reminds me of this when the days come in which I will find myself thinking the opposite.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"default","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[2012,368,1552,2016,1731,1576],"class_list":["post-471","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-free-thoughts","tag-internalisation","tag-metacognition","tag-personalgrowth","tag-planting","tag-volunteering","tag-wellbeing"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/471","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=471"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/471\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":472,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/471\/revisions\/472"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=471"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=471"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lucainfante.xyz\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=471"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}